Fall In Love With My Dark Side

Anyone can fall in love with my virtues, the parts of me that make me shine, but so far no one has had the courage to fall in love with my dark side, with my abstract thoughts, my bad mood,  my moments of overwhelming sadness, my inner villain. Fall in love with me, with my light and especially my darkness.

If you fall in love with my dark side you will see who I really am, what I fear, what I worry about and you will be able to hold me when I tremble. You will see, in time, that I am eternally contradictory and inconsistent,  no matter how hard I try not to be. If you fall in love with all my skeletons, you will fall in love with me.

If you discover my dark side

Discovering my dark side is only a matter of time. Sooner or later he’ll come up and you’ll see my worst sides, but fear not; I’m just a girl who’s afraid to fill her oversized adult shoes. Look at me closely, see what worries me, what makes me angry, what I can’t stand. This is what my dark side is made up of,  the side you won’t see when you first see me.

Fall in love with my madness

Fall in love with the madness that lives in my head, the weird and irrational things I do every day without thinking about the consequences. We don’t always know which is right or left, but we will always see the stars.  Everything will turn and nothing is as it seems.

Fall in love with my immaturity, stubbornness, impatience

Sometimes I act like a little child, equal parts sweet and capricious, infinitely stubborn and impatient. Sometimes you won’t be able to hang out with me. If you still want me, if you can still look at me and fall in love with me, I won’t stop hugging and kissing you until you smile.

If I get mad and don’t want to talk to you, it’s because my biggest fear since childhood is exposing myself for everyone to see. You have to be patient if you really want to know me, to peel away the layers I’m hiding behind, one by one.

You can’t predict what I’ll do or say – you just have to wait and smile. You won’t know what my crazy side is up to until one day you look me in the eye and see the deepest, darkest part of my being. And if you fall in love with this dark, wild, unpredictable side of me, I’ll share my world and my craziness with you.

Fall in love with my fears

If you feel scared, look at me and listen to me. You will know what scares me, the things in life that scare me the most. I will feel vulnerable, but I know you will keep my secrets and know how to protect them. If you’re still in love with me when I’m scared, I’ll be able to look at you and know that you’ll protect me. And you will be open to me about your fears and we will confront them together, bravely.

fall in love with me

Don’t fall in love with these shiny, beautiful parts of me, because that’s not what really matters. Anyone can see that and fall in love with it. If you don’t walk away when you see all the bad sides of me, then I know you’ve fallen in love with me. The parts of me that shine are just an illusion to hide the bad things that no one is looking at. Look under the skin of my soul, under the false pretenses. Don’t stop being curious about who I am and what I am.

Every day, every tear I shed contains a secret, another thread in the web of my life that helps you understand my existence and my dark side, which is my torment and my passion. And every day you will see one less tear on my face, because my lips will form into a smile that shows you how happy I am that I finally found you.